I am still reminded every day about the positive impact Steve has had on my life, I love him so much for that. He has shown me happiness I never imagined but he has also introduced me to friends I may never have known, to their love which I may never have felt and has helped me realise my own strength of character which I never knew existed.
Today has been an OK sort of day. I don't mention work much not because it is good, bad or indifferent but because they monitor and read my posts. I know how I feel about that and I am sure each person reading will have views too but this blog is not about them or where I work etc it is about me, for once it is all about me. Well, not really, Steve features greatly too.
On a personal note I have had a reasonable few days. I have made contact with some old friends, made some new ones and generally I feel I am slowly re-constructing a life around myself. I don't think a lottery win would make it happen sooner but the £100M Euromillions jackpot on Friday would be fab, there are so many charities I would help, I reckon I could "lose" half at least and not miss it.
Tomorrow night I may not get to blog, I am off to the theatre with Mother to see "Top Hat". I saw it advertised some time ago, I mentioned it to a friend and we said it would be nice to go but never got around to booking. Mother mentioned it last week so I managed to get tickets earlier this week. Feathers, Sequins, Tailcoats and Top Hats reminds me of Steve and I or, should I say, Enid and Bobbie....
Looking at this picture though has reminded me of another "Tailcoat and Top Hat" picture...
There aren't any better ones of the two of us in this garb but again seeing the corset reminded me of another occasion we wore the corsets
This was MANY years ago for a friend's 40th Birthday, the birthday "boy" is in the middle
There are SO many happy memories crammed in to the relatively short time we were together and each and every one makes me smile. Today, or rather, this evening, has made me smile a lot. Chatting to a friend this evening too has made me smile. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Steve is showing me the way, guiding me toward happier times. Thank you Steve, Thank you family, Thank you friends.
Goodnight for now xxxx Mark xxxx