Well it may not be to you and to 99.99% of the 8 - 10,000+ people expected to be there tomorrow it wont be either but to me it is. It will be the first time since becoming a double act with Steve that I have put a face on without him. the first time i will have been on stage without him and the first time I don't have him to "bounce off" with banter and quips and our own brand of humour.
It's a daunting one really, I don't know what to expect of myself, I can sort of guess how the crowd will be and how our friends will be and how the artiste's will be but I have no idea how I will be. Odd isn't it, for someone who likes to be in control and will freely admit to being a control freak, (typically only when approved as such by Steve), I have no control over the one thing I should have, me, my feelings and whatever is going on in my head.
I've already had a lot of messages and phone calls of support etc and they have come as a bit of a surprise really but all concerned about how I will manage. The truthful answer is, I don't know, but I suppose I will. I read my tribute at the funeral, I spoke about Steve this week at an event focused on brain tumours and I can do this too. I guess I might be more resilient than I give myself credit for, I hope so anyway.
Well not a lot else really on my mind tonight other than tomorrow. Costume was finished today, hair started and finished today. I have realised though I have done nothing for me, guess I ought to pack a toothbrush and some clean clobber as I will be stopping there tomorrow. Not sure what tomorrow night will bring, I guess it will depend on what the day brings and how I cope with that.
I think I need to be up early tomorrow ironing..... Oh well it's been a nice night chatting to FB friends so not worried about that.
Will update tomorrow if and when I can xxx