the most difficult post I have ever written, it seems to be usual for me of
late, there's been a lot of difficult things for me to do and times for me
to endure over the past month, I have got through each of them in no small
part due to the love and support of those around me which includes those
friends Mark, (Bobbie Dazzler) and I have online, some we have never met and
others we rarely see.
If you've been following you will know I was admitted to hospital 8th
September following the discovery of a growth behind my left eye. On 15th
Sept I was diagnosed with a brain tumor and on 22nd I underwent major brain
surgery to have it removed. Following removal the diseased tissue has been
analysed and I was invited to the hospital this week to learn the results on
Weds 29th Sept.
The anticipation of Wednesdays result has been very stressful for both Mark
and I, the uncertainty, the fear and the simple "what if" when your mind
thinks of what this could be.
On Wednesday my worst fears came true. I have been diagnosed with a fairly
rare form of Brain Tumor, a Glioblastoma Multiforme (GBM) or Grade 4 brain
Tumor. It's malignant and very aggressive, there is no cure and my
condition is terminal. The prognosis is not good. I can't begin to explain
how this has shattered our world and that of those around us.
Many of you will have seen facebook updates from Mark (Bobbie Dazzler)
advising we have now retired from stage, with just a few exceptions we have
been overwhelmed by messages of support and good wishes. This post will
probably explain those posts more clearly.
We have not posted this before as My parents have been abroad and were not
aware of my condition, I wanted to see them and tell them personally before
they found out from those around us and them.
I will receive treatment which will commence within 3 or 4 weeks, I will
receive radiotherapy and chemotherapy on a daily basis, this cannot cure me
but may help extend the time I have by fighting off the disease a little
I am sorry that this may make uncomfortable reading, it's not nice to write
either but, I don't want people to make their own assumptions or guesses and
don't need an outpouring of pity, I want to enjoy the time I have. In
saying that I am really encouraged and touched by the messages received for
both Me and Mark, they really mean a lot.
I will update more in the next few days, please keep reading, it's nice
knowing you're out there.
Xxx Steve - Enid Whiplash